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I would love to say "always knew" or "My decision will not change" ... but sometimes I really confused. Now, however, I am more sure of what I think and feel. I know that's what confused me that night to tell about a few entries, and my baby. My baby is bone it, and I love him knowing it is him, knowing that half their genetic material is going to be there, and I guess that will always be a bond but ... I do not want anything else that there is anything else, because our relationship is over, if ever there relationship because maybe it was just a series of storm events and lots of sex. And Marito really is the crux of the matter, I suppose if it were not for if he returned. And although some things still scare me I want to go with it. I can not say the things he says, I can not do the things he does, I can hardly he show what I feel because I feel like I was going to explode, as it was too intense for me, and sometimes I still try to escape. I really do not know how to say so many things to reach the soul, from which to draw as many words and not sound corny (well rarely). But is not that, not the words because I am not like to analyze everything he says, but only the general idea, I'm not good at those things, is the spirit, the force is not, is something that attracts me warm as the focus to the fly. But I can not say things like he says, and probably not feel the same way. I'm surprised to the point that is able to understand the things I'm going through, which also contribute to it can not answer well. The says everything is fine, I'm not hurting, I really hope that is so cool he is doing no harm, but if he says okay then I guess I can relax. Things should be natural after all. I would not be treated as something that can be broken and so I will not try so on either.
