Temptation 2: Revenge
the hell happened? Well, in my last entry, there was a temptation. It was difficult but I overcame it. The boy helped me, I must admit, turned his attention, now says it was purposely left the service, he completed his internship, then left the country to prepare for an examination abroad. And I kept my life happily with Mario, without thinking even of those things. Until one day, I find it on the messenger ... we started a conversation by webcam, and stayed seeing faces like idiots for hours! We talked of many things that seemed to joke, from a purely potential, hypothetical, virtual, which did not last time (and things happen for a reason) and do not know if it will work or not, most likely not because we different, because both already have a way to go and not going to the same side, because we have a person beside us, because we're not even in the same country. But it was an emotion so strong despite being by far, which really made me think about the possibility even more than last time. Now I feel the smell but I still feel more vulnerable, is why it? I feel it is less biased ... or rather will be biased, as an obsession of which always give me ... I am a rather obsessive person, from time to time catch me, by people, men and women, in pairs, for most frequent TV series anime, and songs .... a recurring theme in my mind, I try to make drawings or sometimes with orgasm but do not seem to work ... the end only time I take them out. Who knows if many times I really love is that, for example with ODL, did so many crazy and I forget the final. It could be that this time also works well. But then that is the Mario for me? Because I want time to stop a moment to be with this other guy and make him repeatedly pieces times, but then put play and live with Mario. I have no intention of losing the M, I can not lose. Makenai me! I fight against it again .. but I feel this is increasingly difficult because they are not doing to defects or bar. Now is the specter of trying to pull my desire ... and I have until August to beat ... should really be? maybe you should let the brightness of the fight without knowing Marito. But at least I will not seek, because it now makes me worse ... the other time I could pretend, but now I find it so difficult porq not pass something tangible but abstract. Is not real but a dream.
