Bang Bang chit Jum, really makes me mad when people say that is that I idealize the people I love, and I am very amorous.
And that's not true.
What happens to me is that when someone I like, I LIKE. I love from the beginning my head to the tip of my foot, and I get very angry if someone tells me otherwise, and looks at me with condescension.
I think my immune system is depressed, because it's like everything and everyone was affected.
Anyway, would not talk about that now.
I wanted
explain the feeling I feel.
I laugh, I can be the person who laughs in the world, or be in the happiest moment of my life fun, but even there, I still have that void in his chest.
I always, I'm asking you, the first thing that comes to mind is fear.
Why is a feeling akin to being constantly on the verge of falling into the well.
Fear of being told a word, make a gesture, or a detail that hurts me, I'm so unstable and if I blow me fall.
Similar to a continued dependence on everything and everyone and an absolute distrust
As spend all day with the 5 senses open to smell, hear, touch all that, start to look Azuloscurocasinegro.
What actually happens is that they filter out more stuff that is true. Any word, gesture or detail without the slightest importance, hurts me like I was going to burst his head.
seems to me no longer distinguish right from wrong, and interpret everything as an attack, unconsciously, to prepare for the worst; that in reality never comes, but I hope with sadness, for what need not reach to make me sad.
I already was, since one of my senses felt something different, strange or weird.
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